You Asked

Why I love someone (you). My meaning of love consits of reality, trust. When you are hurting, I'M HURTING, having a bad day I'M HAVING A BAD DAY.

Really you deleted me? I guess i made no impression on you over these last 5 years that you want to remember. I would never want to delete you from my life you were always the one who made me smile, even when I wanted to cry! We have been through much that wouldn't change any of it for the world, even the shitty parts of what we had. You taught me so much and showed me a part of life that I never knew was there. We were always good together, I wish I knew how it all got so fucked up with us, or when. I wish we could start over so that we could save us in the end of all this hell we know as love. Loading you belongings into your car was like I was losing you all over again, I feel like I have lost you so many times, and it gets harder every time never easier! You tell me your hurting but i would never know it from watching you. You never seem to be anything other than happy, it's me how is a wreck inside and out! I'm always the one who is left heart broken and alone, standing and barely breathing. Wishing that I could stop the pain I get shooting through my chest, wanting to end it all for good. Death seems like it would bring so much peace to my soul, it sounds almost inviting...

The Month of September Has in Store

The new Moon at the end of August occurs in your work and health zone and this cautions you in the first few days of September to be mindful of not overloading yourself. Excellent aspects from Venus and the Sun provide you with a spate of opportunities, but you may also overestimate yourself and this can lead to exhaustion, perhaps even to breaking point, particularly between the 3rd and the 7th.

Your conduct will be under scrutiny between the 9th and the 12th. You’ll need to adjust your behaviour so that it is in keeping with what others expect of you. Rather than seeing this as some sort of ball and chain, you might like to try acting your way through the event to see what sort of reactions you get from others. Regard this as an educational cycle for self-development.

For things to change, and they will, particularly after the 12th, you have to employ a ruthless attitude by giving up the old to make way for the new. Your style of communication could drastically change at this point in time, and others may not feel altogether comfortable about this new approach you adopt. After the 15th, however, you’ll be surprised that others may start to offer you considerably more respect.

There’s nothing worse than having someone correct what you consider to be good work. After the 19th there may be a necessity to make repairs, clean up and restore some of the work you’ve done before, not because of your own desires, but because someone else regards your work as sub-standard. Conversely, it is possible that those you employ to do certain work for you could themselves be cutting corners, and this could lead you into a confrontation.

You have to detach yourself if you are to make correct judgments after the 23rd. You have to integrate your vision and understanding of others through reflection, self-awareness and a deep, unbiased self-interrogation. By the 26th, these internal manoeuvres will bring you to a new light of understanding orrealisation, which can be transposed to your working life, into relationships and personal friendships as well.

Progress after the 28th can certainly be made but you mustn’t be in a hurry to get to the finishing line. This will only create errors, and result in poor approval ratings for you. The most likely way that you can achieve the results that you want is through a steady and measured approach. Between the 29th and the 30th your relationships will be a little less than exciting but you mustn’t let this deter you from expressing your love. You need to cultivate patience with your loved one until they feel a little more comfortable in reciprocating and demonstrating their love for you.

This could be a profound period of the year when your dreams or insights inspire your creativity and your sense of love and companionship. From the 1st to the 3rd you need to act upon those vivid flashes of imagination.  By trying something different, pampering your partner and approaching your romantic life in a slightly different way, you will enliven your love life.

From the 4^th to the 9^th your sense of adventure will cause you to drop everything at a moment’s notice and do something that is liberating, exciting and out of the norm.  You could be feeling wild and want to try something that may not be culturally acceptable

You could take some pleasurable family trips with relatives and loved ones from the 10^th to the 14th.  You may also express your creativity in the kitchen, through cooking or beautifying your surroundings.  The interior designer in you will come to the fore.

Don’t let confusion dominate you between the 16th and the 22nd.  If you are not feeling clear on what others are trying to persuade you to do you should gracefully decline the invitation.

rom the 23^rd to the 28th you will be able to share your interests with your spouse or lover in greater measure.  It could be that there will be a cross over in your intellectual interests and your general pursuits.

Sometime around the 29^th a platonic relationship could undergo some challenges.  You will feel short changed if a friend is nonchalant or insensitive to your desire to improve relations.  You can’t be everything to all people.

Expect a pleasant time in your romantic and social dealings on the 30^th and 31st.  Issues of loyalty, commitment and trust could resurface if you have been having some doubts about these matters.  Lay your cards on the table and ask your partner to do the same.

How Your Criminal Record Can be Found

Privacy is a thing of the past, at any moment anyone can find out just what you have been up too. It may be time consuming but you can have information on just about anyone. Because knowing who your daughter is dating or if your child's Little League Coach has ever had any indiscretions.

 Just how easy is it to obtain a person's criminal records?
http://www.bukisa.com/articles/360957_how-your-criminal-record-can-be-found

How to Clear Your Criminal Record: A Step-By-Step Guide

Lunar Love Horoscope for Taurus

Flights of Fancy
Week of June 4 - 6
The weekend starts all sweet and squishy with the Moon in super-sensitive Pisces and passionate Mars opposite surreal Neptune on Friday. This emotional dreaminess definitely puts a dash of romance in the air and encourages escapes from reality. Fantasy plays an important role in intimate matters now, raising relationships from their predictable routine to higher levels of inspiration. Stretching the boundaries of imagination can rekindle the spark in a less-than-thrilling partnership. On the other hand, the lure of a new person in these fuzzy circumstances can overcome good judgment. Enjoy the flights of fancy and the pleasures of the heart that are unfolding now, but don't count on this as the right time to build a solid foundation.
Emotions are tender on Saturday as the Moon continues to float through adaptable Pisces. But in the wee hours of Sunday morning, the Moon rams into fiery Aries, burning away the vulnerability and the instinct to give ground to gain intimacy. This is a time when self-interest emerges and the drive to move forward overcomes the need to feel cozy. New and exciting activities, especially physical ones, are perfect for pioneering Aries. Impatience and spontaneity increase to bring passion to a higher level.

Windows Live Writer

Writing from Windows Live Writer!

This is my first post using Windows Live Writer, and looks to be much easier so far.  I’ll let you know as I continue to play with it, maybe this means I’ll post more?!?

Sell Your Attention

I found this cool site while I was surfing the net awhile ago that pays you to check out new sites. Advertisers pay this company YouData to allow them to refer you to their site. It takes a few mins. to fill out all the information about yourself, nothing personal just the normal questions about your likes and dislikes. This way you only get ads. that fit you, that you would be interested in looking at closely.


I haven't made much money, most ads are under a dollar and only a few at a time. You really do get paid within a day or two into your paypal account. The only thing that sucks is that when you go and log in there is no guraentee you will have any offers. It's not much money but it's so easy and fun!

The company's name is YouData (youdata.com). They are trying to convince consumers like us that we should be the ones controlling our own data and selling our own attention, not third parties like broadcasters, newspapers, and spammers. By creating a MeFile at YouData.com, I now control what ads I see and when I see them. Best part - I am selling my attention directly to interested advertisers, for real money. That's right, I get paid for giving them my attention. I can use the funds to buy music and video online, donate to charities, give to my favorite blogs and websites, or keep the change myself and do whatever I want with it.

It's real. They pay. You should check it out.
Click this link to sign up. My MeFile ID, dozertruck, in the "Referral Code" will tell them I sent you.
http://www.youdata.com/join/dozertruck


What do you have to lose...